Serendipity to Tingle !!!

Its Christmas Eve and I have nothing much to do… cause gone are those days when Santa used to leave a present in disguise. I am watching a movie with my cup of coffee. Certain similarity strikes me… Serendipity.

Chance meeting of two strangers can go a long way. And before you even realize, you are already game. Something that you just can not explain …a complete stranger yet so familiar.Crossing each other for couple of times in different lanes followed by the obvious “let’s talk”. And it went on….

We meet at the cross roads of life and walk the next few miles together. And I am loving the walk .. Before I go to bed with a smile on my face I can only wish to all the beautiful strangers out there.. Enjoy the journey called Life and make that way the best ever traveled.

P:S  We can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend !! Trust me You won’t repent :)

Love Thyself!!! Then What Is Love?

I guess I have always been deeply terrified to really
be someone's wife since I know from life one cannot love another, ever,
really...- Marilyn Monroe .

I came across the above quote this morning, definitely made me think. I do agree with the fact that we are ‘Self’ lovers before becoming someone else’s love or vice-versa. I look around and see my best friend tying a knot with her seven years of relationship and on the other hand there is another girl who just broke up because she was unable to connect with her present like her EX. Bewildered.

I have always been clear that I call myself a wife of that man whom I love. But is that so easy …? I have no clue how long it takes for me to find that true essence and I fear a settlement of convenience…because they say, I am running out of time.

I feel love grows with time like wine. Something happening at first sight is lust which may then mature into love. It’s like a ‘habit’ which u just can’t change and u don’t want to either. They say love is a huge term. I fail to understand how huge it can be and which part has more depth…. ‘The Narcissist’ or ‘the Lover’. Who is more important in that thread of ‘I-><-WE'.

The Most Important Man in My Life…

These eyes saw the light of the world in your hands..

Arms that cradled the angel of yours.

The fingers that held me high

When trembling feet felt the ground..

It was you who made me learn

Life is not how you plan.

You made me strong

When I was weak making me believe that I am all you need.

For whom I waited the whole day long,

To open the door when he would come.

I never had to ask..

Cause you had a magic wand

My dinner dates at Peter Cat.

My candles and music..

You were my first.

My first Man of my life..

They say “A father is always making his baby into a little woman”

And you still are….

Runaway Bride ….

A gal who always made her presence felt with her care.

Sometimes just lost in her thoughts..

Those eyes in search of the Neverland .

His name always brought a smile on her face.

And that smile lightened her up..

Visible through her locks.

A kid building the blocks and then messing them up..

Finding happiness in small things..

Her friends are counted.. and they count on her.

A friend when I break down..

A guide when I am lost ..

Your ‘He’ is waiting and your ‘Neverland’ beckons !!

P:S This Post is dedicated to my best friend Isha and a Bride to be :)

Here’s wishing you happiness n Love forevah !!

When the Unstoppable meets the Immovable.....

The fire of desires that burn them down...

The turmoil of untamed emotions.

Rising of the pain...

The pleasure begins.

Unfolding of the chapters of life..

Penning down the new.

With every sip of wine..

With every breath together.

The nudge hiding from their eyes..

The kiss with a never enough crave.

They lived in those moments …

Moments never to forget.

They didn’t need permission

Nor the rules could part them..

Some laughs to remember..

Some tears to hide .

They took the last sip..

While Eagles sang the “California” ♥♥

Milky Way…..

I was walking through...

The fog... The mist.

You passed by

You passed through me.

Constant effort to build...

The world without confinements.

They don’t intrude…They don’t set rules.

The dead end comes and we take a deviation

We find the other way...

That continues for the complete life cycle.

“….there's no formula for a perfect relationship - this isn't algebra. You will figure out what the variables are through a system of trial and error….”

In_compatible Formats ...

Out from the black and white

Memories of past ..

Past came with expectations..

Past came with demands...

Past came with days..

Inconvenience with time..

Growing out everywhere..

Growing on Love..

When you don't wanna let go..

Don't let it suffocate .

Don't let the Obvious come in.

Don't Complicate..

Keeping it simple is tough..

But not im_possible.

They say 'When the going gets tough..

The tough gets going .."

Who walks in when the rest of the world walks out...

".........She feared pain,loss and separation.These things were inevitable on the path to love, and the only way of avoiding them was by deciding not to take that path at all.In order not to suffer,you had to renounce love.It was like putting out your own eyes in order not to see the bad things in life...''

http://ilehasi.blogspot.com/2010/08/loveloss-and-despair.html



This made me think. I never knew that they can read my mind. At least She did .. :)
Been best buds for 12 yrs now...and her last blog post with those lines just renewed our friendship.All I could say was "thanks for being there for me...thanks for understanding"
Every twist and turns were shared between these two most talkative gals in Class 9 sec -B.
Since then laughed and walked through different tastes of life...
Agreed and disagreed .. but never deserted.
Learned and Unlearned.. but never forgot .


Just be there till I am buried and my soul concealed ....

'Now That You're Rich..Let's Fallin Love' - Durjoy & Maanvi .........And my Surprise from him :)

Finished reading the above novel lastnite. I have never read any of their work before until my friend Debanjan left the book with me after reading ,with his recommendation.Durjoy's work was passed on to Debanjan by Indro (My Bro) and i am a big follower of my bros ** though they don't know or may be they know ** ;)

The book was a reflection of moments from my life. Abhi, Saurav, Shruti, Garima.... were me at some point or the other.How these individuals came from different backgrounds and past ..meet at Silverman Financial with their new job and then become "Family". I could relate to the same because I came to Bangalore after my studies and had not many friends around. People whom i can call my friends are those whom i met in IBM. They make my life roll as Durjoy says '...friends can do wonder'.
I have already told them about the book that i was reading.

1st Aug 3:00 am when I finished reading the book,I slept with a thought of being connected. Today I woke up and after few search in Google found out the mail id of Durjoy. Just couldn't help :)
Whatever i wrote to him is attached below .

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To Durjoy datta from me : Aug 1, 2010 at 10:47 AM UKT

Sub :Just not any other fan mail :) Ahh im ur fan thou'

Hi D,

This is definitely my first ever mail to any of the authors I have read in my days at Jadavpur University or even later. I have never attempted or you can say dared to write to any author or celeb who has inspired me. But as they say ,there is always a first time :)

'Now That You're Rich .. Let's Fall In Love' is a book that my friend Debanjan gave me .He read it on his way to Bangalore from Kolkata. He had read your other books as well which i didn't and this book came with his recommendation. I started reading it once he left.

A cuppa and Durjoy in hand..that's what i tweeted :) **I guess** .The acknowledgment drew my attention for sure. No point talking about the Story coz i am sure you know the influence of the same on your reader by now. I loved every bit of it. I would rather tell you the impact of it.Your work got imprinted on me. ** Influenced by Eclipse "Imprinting on someone" if you have seen it recently** :)

Abhi. Saurav. Shruti. Garima.... were me at some point or the other. I am sure your other readers might have found similarities as well. Deb is the one who i wannabe in this Corp world that i am into. Daring and fearless :)

It was a fairytale ending thou but guess that's what we are all living with ... HOPE.

Running short of words . Will definitely give a better shot next time :)

Keep Writing ..and will go and pick up the other two books from Crossword.

P.S Have started following you in twitter and your book is my next Blog post :)

Regards

Priyanka

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This was a satisfaction.I was happy. But i never knew what was coming.

Durjoy datta to me : Sun, Aug 1, 2010 at 5:03 PM UKT

.....and this is one of the best mails I have ever received. :)

Thank you.

P.S. - You write well!

OMG!! HE REPLIED :D And i had to reply back to him :
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To Durjoy datta from me

OMG OMG OMG !!!!!!

That's all i could say seeing your reply :) Called up Debanjan coz he was the reason behind the book in my hand..followed by my below tweet.

Payal_tweets

The best surprise evah ... coz he replied to me :D. Thanks a ton @durjoydatta . His P.S part pulled me to Cloud 9 :)

Thanks a ton ...

P.S : I am blessed that I am a 'FAN' of such a down to earth person. :)

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I was Sooooooooooooooo Happpieeeeeeeeee. And before i forget to tell you , He did reply with two smileys " :) :) ". I just hope i get sleep tonite. Will remember this day, along with the few that i have in my list, FoReVeR :)

U asked me "what was wrong" …I smiled n said "Nothing”. Turned around and whispered "Everything".

Relationships at times tie us up and also our thoughts or curbs down the voice to speak out loud. He didn’t understand what I meant when I said “Nothing”. If he would have … I am sure we would not have parted. Communication between hearts and minds are equally important …there are lot which remains unsaid in every relationship. And we fail to figure out the ‘unsaid’. I might sound little impractical but this is my experience.
‘Misunderstandings’ the word itself points out the ‘Miss’. Missing out on understanding the unsaid part makes the divide huge … uncrossable. Falling apart is always a simple way to choose. Keeping up the trust is way too difficult.

I choose to keep it simple yet it gets tangled. And it tends to get more entangled. Think that is what life is all about …maze. The more you try to find out the reason the more you get entangled.

But at the end all what it matters is you can’t be everything to everyone but you are something to someone.

The importance of living passionately and treasuring every day of one's life...

Not sure why i started writing at 3 am in the morning ...after watching a movie. Sounds so stupid!!
I thot so ...but i guess we tend to forget our pains...as they say "time is the best healer".

No doubt it is... Not sure how many of you, who will read through my post, have watched 'Remember Me'. I was watching just another movie on the Saturday nite as i do almost every weekend after dinner. The reason to watch this one was Robert Pattinson..Just because im a fan :)

The start was like a bolt ...and i continued. Don't get me wrong Rob was no macho man in the movie. The story was simple yet every dialogue "can drive you crazy with its self-consciousness.". It flowed. Gradually the story was coming to an end. Just when i was thinking wat's there to remember in 'Remember Me' ... The last scene made it memorable. Just a date and all i had with me was tears in my eyes.

I have never written or pondered over a movie. But this made me think. Am i among those whose wounds are healed by time? Have they sealed with dust of my daily life!! Or am i fighting every day with my conscience to forget the pain and to fill the huge void. The void that hit me years back. This date was just for me to remember and have tears of loss.

One thing I have learnt on 10/12..Life is all about making a new beginning when you feel every thing has ended. Cheers to Life!!

Life - Oblivion ...!!!

Whispering Winds,
Tangled curtains,
Dropping tears,
Grasping Hands,
Holding on,
Yet Lost.


Last breath...
Flickering flame.
Fumes--- Silence.


This little life has so much to say, so much to learn. Every step takes us to a new beginning. Every new beginning has new relationships. We tie... we untie.
My Da (Indro) told me once "spend time in thinking bout stuff that is under your control" and I believe him. We tend to forget what we have and always go behind what we don’t. Making the present more beautiful is life. Rest will be taken care.

Thinking a li'l hard..Life..Love..or wannabe !!

This is not the first time that i need to take a decision which can be life changing. One was exactly three years back when i decided to go out of my protected shell and explore life. It was not all smooth but I did pass through the rough patches and made a place of my own. Those skeptical minds were then proud of me .

Then came another one as soon as i thought life is happening in my way. To part away from something which has become a part of you isn't a simple task. I knew i was right. Space became huge and void filled in, I had to do it and i did for good ,bad or ugly. At times its best to just leave the place where you are no more wanted without asking any kind of explanation. You can always feel the cold, it just grabs you and takes you in.

Almost two years and now its becoming a little claustrophobic. It is not that i have "mood swings" :) . When people around you want something for you and you feel its not what you want.. turmoil begins . I have no clue who /what/how is "He" . And things look so foggy. I feel i should take a call. My next step should be Me . I can not let a person become a part of me until I allow him to. I love him to. I surrender :) What if it doesn't happen. I still keep walking and find my next destination. My life. It reminds me of a very favorite song
" I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green day.

I am sure i will soon find the way ...to my next destination :)
Till then assorted .. :)

Darkworld...

Painted faces standing on sides,
Lights diluted in smoke .
Pale shades smudged in life..
Years left without change

Every pain left their mark..
Each with a tale untold..
None bothered to ask..
Drought of every emotions...


That is what comes to my mind when I see them standing under the street lights near M.G road..People staring at them as if they are the public display of sex. Few from my cab too. I am not getting into the question of legal /illegal or social recognitions. I am talking about the sarcastic smile. I don't know why it irritated me. Is it just because I am a girl? Or its human perception ?

I just hope people do take a look deep inside their hearts as well..God Bless!!

Phase !!

 A juncture where one needs to tame down the wild tide...
Confusion turning to gradual turmoil.
I am sure i can get over it..I need to give it some time
Some thoughts ..I am sure its all planned



Will be executed ..



I will surrender then...let go!!
Let go of all that i was holding back..
Emotions..Love..Heart
I will surrender me :)

My Other Half :)

It stopped after the Jadavpur Univ days were over (June 2007). My poems ...my thoughts.Life was thrown into reality . Hectic rat race and the determination to prove myself pushed back the lazy dreamer. Lots have changed ..lots earned n lost since then.

Now I feel I should revive the other side of me. Pour my thoughts out through words.
Will think from where to begin and will keep myself alive.
I am GREEN :)